Dieting sucks, and I HATE IT

I sent the following email to my lovely friends, sister, and nieces; we are all trying to lose weight, and some of us have a specific goal of losing 40-45 lbs by August (thus the little scale-o-meter at the top of my blog page - you know, the one that never mooves? Oops, I meant mooves. Moooves. Moves. Whatever.)

Hi ladies – how is everyone doing with their goals? I suck. Big time. I am not any closer to meeting my goal than I was when I started! I have been frustrated and depressed, and it has caused me to find solace in my comfort foods: pizza (curse you Domino’s!!!! I ate an entire medium deep dish pizza Thursday night – that’s right, an entire medium pizza all by myself in one sitting); Super Nachos from Guadalajara (which are actually meant to serve four people as an appetizer); burgers and fries from McDonalds. Well ladies – that was last week. This is a new week – which for me actually started Saturday. The weather here has finally reached above 45° and is predicted to be 75°+ for the rest of the week! Talk about a boost!! Saturday and Sunday I opened every single window in my place and let the nice fresh air blow around and through it. It was fabulous! I started taking Lipozene on Friday before lunch and dinner and it really helps to dampen my appetite, and I am fuller quicker – which is the whole point. I have a 30-day supply, so I will let you know how they work for me.

Sunday I went grocery shopping at Wally World and got stuff for lunches and dinner. I seem to do really well (most of the time) while I am at work. I pack a lunch with a Lean Cuisine or Smart Ones frozen entrée, a jello or pudding cup, cottage cheese and fruit, and some crackers or something crunchy for a snack. One drawer of my desk is filled – literally – with sugar-free drinks for my water, Fiber One and Zone Perfect bars, and instant oatmeal packets (for breakfast since I cannot ever get breakfast at home). Dinner is my ultimate downfall. By the time I get home I just don’t want to make anything; the kitchen is a complete disaster full of dirty dishes, etc., I am tired and frustrated after a long day of working for this stupid company, and I just want to go through a drive-thru or order pizza online because it is fast and I don’t have to do much. So, I have purchased Weight Watcher points friendly sandwich makings, etc. so that I can just make myself a simple sandwich when I get home. Taking the Lipozene at about 5pm helps me stop the over eating and snacking after I get home, so that is a plus!

I do Weight Watchers online, and last week they put out a walking challenge and encouraged people to make teams, etc. I finally found a couple of people here in Billings that want to participate with me in this, and we are getting together Tuesday for our first “official” walk together (our team name is – my idea – The Billings Booty Busters). The challenge is basically to be 5K ready in 8 weeks – for either a 5K walk or run. There is no way I could do a 5K run in my present condition, but I am determined to be able to do a 5K walk! I took a little, tiny-weenie, walk yesterday – down to the end of my block, across the street to the other end of the block, back across the street again to home. I was probably only about an eighth of a mile, but it felt really good to just get the body moving, and I met my neighbor that moved in next door about six months ago since he was outside playing with his 2 year old son and 1 year old daughter in the lovely sunshine!

So, I am feeling very positive this morning – despite gaining 3.2 pound last week – and I hope you all are feeling positive too! WE CAN DO THIS. It may not seem like it sometimes, but I refuse to give up.

Love you all!!!

Wow, wasn't that positive and uplifting? I have no idea where it came from. Oh, don't get me wrong; I am feeling positive, etc. but I suppose it was just a little sugary for the real me. Anyway, so far so good today. I really got into a slump as it was my birthday last week - on the 15th. Yep! What is almost as fun as sharing your birthday with Hitler? Sharing with the IRS of course! That means for lucky little 'ol me, I cannot ever forget my birthday or when taxes are due. NEAT! I now need to perfect my Patsy Stone accent (I'M FORTY-TWO!)

I just get frustrated because sometimes things that I don't want to pass quickly always do, and losing weight is not one of those things. I get all hepped up and excited and positive, etc. but it still takes FOREVER for next week to come so that I can see the results of my progress (if any). How come the weekends don't follow the same time continuum? (That was for all of you Star Trek fans out there. As if you read my blog.)

But the good news is that the days are getting longer and it stays lighter now; Family Guy had a new episode last night so I have a NEW un-PC song stuck in my noggin' (a bag of weed, a bag of weed, everything goes better with a bag of weed!); baseball games have started in earnest; and the weather is finally leading us Montanan's to believe (erroniously, of course) that all the snow is behind us and we can now enjoy our first sunburn of the year.

So, until next time, please concentrate on the little scale at the top of my blog and will it to moooove towards my goal. Your cooperation is greatly appreciated.

TTFN.